daily thought log

3/31/2025 ; 2:18PM

we did it. it's finally done. we officially own a house!

the closing was today, we signed all the paperwork, and we got the keys! the previous owner even gave us the skeleton key for the original deadbolt on the door and it's AWESOME. yesterday we did the final walkthrough, and it's so beautiful. so much original woodwork, antiques, and the previous owner left us SO MUCH STUFF! lots of awesome, antique wooden furniture, artwork for the walls, even the bedframes and beds! we're honestly going to just give/throw away all of our current furniture, because the stuff they left us with is so amazing. i'm really really happy with how everything has been working out.

we don't officially move until sunday, but the house is already technically ours. i was gonna drive over there today to start cleaning and moving some smaller things over, but we had a HUGE snowstorm this weekend. my car is buried under like 2 feet of snow, the roads are so slushy and icey, and my poor little car will not be able to handle it. so, oh well...

i'm really excited about how this is going to impact our lives. we're going to have our own home. free to do whatever we want. no need to worry about neighbors stomping up the stairs, or going down 3 flights of stairs and walk across the parking lot to throw our garbage in the dumpster. no more having to tip toe around the apartment because we don't want to make noise. our dogs won't bark at all the random people parking outside. it's just gonna be a game changer.

i have big plans for our garden. i hope i can actually get all this stuff to grow, but i have high hopes! we're also going to get chickens, which is SUPER exciting. so yeah, lots of stuff in the works.

i've been really taking a break and stepping back from social media lately. i dumb-ified my phone and only have necessary apps on there, and i only allow myself to access youtube from the browser. i got an MP3 player and downloaded loads of music to finally get rid of spotify. i've been writing in a journal about my thoughts and reading. it feels really good, to not go online and see shit that either infuriates me or makes me panic about the state of the world. i try to still stay informed, but i think for my mental sanity i just need to stay off of it all. the internet just sucks right now, and anything i can do to enrich myself off of it is a plus. once we're settled and moved into the house, i'm gonna try and take up crocheting again. it's just the perfect mind-numbing activity to do with your hands, and actually get a physical item out of.

i think we've forgotten the importance of having physical items, and making those items with our hands. sculpting, making traditional art, gardening, crocheting, reading a physical book, playing a record or a CD. it's the ritual and process of these things that's really fulfilling.

anyway, i need to get back to packing, but just thought i would write on here real quick. bye bye!

3/8/2025 ; 3:58PM

oh boy. it really has been awhile... so i'm sorry about that LOL

last year ended up being... so much busier than i wanted it to be. but in the best way, if that makes sense. i've definitely neglected this site, not because i wanted to, but just because i've been so busy with other things. i'm trying to change that this year though. because the internet is going in a dark direction, and i want to be better than that.

currently writing this in a coffee shop/toy store that my partner and i like to visit, and it's nice in here. it's funny, because i've almost completely forgotten everything i learned about coding from when i was originally making this site. i'm slowly trying to re-learn everything, but fuck it's hard. i remember when i first made this site, i got it up and running in like a week! i don't know how i managed to do that, i was built different in 2023.

it's snowing really gently outside, and it's nice. we recently had a snowstorm, and there was snow up to my waist in the parking lot of our apartment complex. my car was stuck and i couldn't move it, so that sucks, but luckily nic's car is strong in this kind of weather. my poor little toaster car...

anyway, i'm gonna try and keep developing this site as much as i can. there may not be journal entries to log the changes, but there will definitely be little things changing here and there in the background. i'm considering even scrapping everything and starting over, but i've grown attached to this layout and all the little things i've added. i also know i'll regret scrapping everything if i do, so it'll stay like this for now.

i haven't said this anywhere else, but it feels appropriate to say it here. it's been in the works for the last couple months, but we finally got confirmation for everything this week... my partner and i bought a house! it's this wonderful victorian home, built in 1900, and it has sooooo much character. we move in a couple weeks, so that's been stressful, but i'm also excited at all the possibilities. i'm already planning our vegetable garden, the furniture, how we're gonna decorate. it's gonna be a lot of work, but it will pay off in the long run. we'll be so much more comfortable, the dogs will have a yard to run and play, i'll have gardening space, and LAUNDRY!!! i hate not having easy access to laundry, but now we'll have our very own washer and dryers! honestly, that's the part i'm looking forward too the most.

anyway, i think that's it for now! don't be surprised if things change mega style from this point forward. and i MEAN IT this time.